my spirits are pretty high today and i hope it won't drop an inch until i go home this afternoon. it's just a little sad though that my "inspiration" isn't here.. no one to stalk... hehe.. nah, i just feel happy seeing him around... anyway, i think this whole crush thing is going up a notch higher... i mean, i'm really really starting to like like like him... hehe! and i don't know why. i just don't get it... as my good friend zillah puts it, the only thing lacking him is a big "L" sign on the forehead. but i beg to disagree. Well maybe he's a little off when it comes to his fashion but all in all, he's really not that bad. in fact, he has this cute face which he conceals with his unruly hair... (",)
anyway, so far my day's good... even without a glimpse of him... 'til next...
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Monday, August 22, 2005
crushing 101
there's really nothing spectacular about having a serious (is this?!?) crush on someone... especially on someone whom you see everyday but not necessarily get close to as much as you wish for. in my case, i easily get frustrated when the day passes by without my prospect looking (and please, smiling) my way. I usually find him snobbish or a bit moody or i tend to hate (well, just irked by) him. Don't get me wrong... i seriously hate this feeling. blah....
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
August 10, 2005 Wednesday 1:51 pm - I was jilted last night
Is this a good day or what?!?! At last, we have finished the prototype of the EMS 2004 project... yea, after days (and nights) of unabated work (except for a minute or two of daydreaming about the pretty guy). Whom, speaking of, I've been missing for the past seven and a half hours. he's not here the whole day. =( yesterday, i felt like i was jilted. he commented something about our picture that broke my little heart... haha! something like not wanting to see it again... grrr.... that... guy! anyway, i'm having a good time right now... not too loaded with work but i haven't finished this one thingy that i have right now... hmmm... my mind has this big void in it that it feels sooo empty today... maybe drained with too much thinking during the previous project. wait 'till the big boss comes back and we're in for tons more.
Friday, August 05, 2005
August 05, 2005 Friday 6:55pm
Rochelle and me are suppose to have dinner together but it was cancelled at the last minute because of the heavy downpour. it's fine with me though as i still have a long list of "to do stuffs" to finish.
What a day! I was actually sulking this morning because I thought the pretty guy was mad at me. turned out he wasn't. we even had lunch together. geez, i am really being a paranoid... (it's sooo pathetic) but as always, i do not care... I am happy and I am fine with it. (",) This was also the first time I ever had a picture taken with the pretty guy. The outcome wasnn't that magnificent though -- he looked a little constipated while I looked like a mad kitten... shucks... hoped it was prettier (^__^)
He was nice but still, aloof. We kind'a teased him about forgetting how to smile because of too much work... He said in real life, he's a goofball. I'd surely like to see that side. *sigh* I wish to know him more.
What a day! I was actually sulking this morning because I thought the pretty guy was mad at me. turned out he wasn't. we even had lunch together. geez, i am really being a paranoid... (it's sooo pathetic) but as always, i do not care... I am happy and I am fine with it. (",) This was also the first time I ever had a picture taken with the pretty guy. The outcome wasnn't that magnificent though -- he looked a little constipated while I looked like a mad kitten... shucks... hoped it was prettier (^__^)
He was nice but still, aloof. We kind'a teased him about forgetting how to smile because of too much work... He said in real life, he's a goofball. I'd surely like to see that side. *sigh* I wish to know him more.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
August 03, 2005 Wednesday 7:15 pm
It's just the middle of the week and it felt like weekend already! we're sooo loaded with work these days. I am actually quite finish with the editing stuff for the 'procedures' ... almost done and i'm so happy about it.
sucks big time today... the pretty guy isn't here the whole day. =( i sooo missed looking at him (i know i sound like a total psycho...hehe!) ei, he's really cute today! err, he looks a bit different and i'd say he really looks something... (",) but yea, he didn't stay the whole day... grrr.... guess i'd just see him tomorrow then....
okay, i have to go back to work...
sucks big time today... the pretty guy isn't here the whole day. =( i sooo missed looking at him (i know i sound like a total psycho...hehe!) ei, he's really cute today! err, he looks a bit different and i'd say he really looks something... (",) but yea, he didn't stay the whole day... grrr.... guess i'd just see him tomorrow then....
okay, i have to go back to work...
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
August 02, 2005 Tuesday 7:05 pm
About my pretty guy (but he doesn't know actually!!!)
He's sitting quietly at his workstation working on something... I just wish he'd come by and say 'hi'... geez, i am really getting pathetic. (let me be, i am happy anyway) i wonder about this guy really. while others may not notice it, his being 'mysterious' makes me like him even more. what kind of food does he like? What about music? does he read Harry Potter like me? (I doubt...) All i know is that he's into music (the classical type, or maybe not... basta music). He likes laing and he has this weird fashion sense. He also has this weird voice, a little high-pitched for a guy. but it doesn't really matter, he's cute and I like him for that. I just wish i could really get to know him more without being too obvious that i am infatuated with him.... yaikks! wonder what time he's going to go home this time...(",)
He's sitting quietly at his workstation working on something... I just wish he'd come by and say 'hi'... geez, i am really getting pathetic. (let me be, i am happy anyway) i wonder about this guy really. while others may not notice it, his being 'mysterious' makes me like him even more. what kind of food does he like? What about music? does he read Harry Potter like me? (I doubt...) All i know is that he's into music (the classical type, or maybe not... basta music). He likes laing and he has this weird fashion sense. He also has this weird voice, a little high-pitched for a guy. but it doesn't really matter, he's cute and I like him for that. I just wish i could really get to know him more without being too obvious that i am infatuated with him.... yaikks! wonder what time he's going to go home this time...(",)
August 02 Tuesday 3:45 pm
i know you are losing the truest sense of what you are called -- My daybook -- because i haven't written in a long time (and it's suppose to be everyday!) Lately, we've been really buried with work because of that Trainer's Companion Stuff. Last night, we went home almost 9pm. I wasn't able to finish the editing stuff but atleast, I'm going somewhere.
The pretty guy also took an ot yesterday so it didn't bother me much having to spend almost 13 hours in the office (tee-hee!) lovely to look at, charming to hold... but i'm only allowed the former. sucks.
It was just past 3pm when I opened this blog... i had to finish some things so it's actually 6:45 pm now. I'm still here at the office. To be honest, I am not actually psyched at all to go home. I can actually stay here for as long as it could take. I'd rather work than be the stranger that I am at home with my mother. I wonder of we'll ever be okay. As far as I know, I have nothing to ask for an apology for. I know I am only a daughter but daughters also have rights and dignity to keep. And my so-called mother just stripped me off of what's what left of that. She ought to say sorry, not me. (I know i sound like a total b**ch but i was raised to fight for my beliefs).
Yesterday, my boss already spoke to us (V and Z) about that house (Condo actually) that they are going to rent for us (with us paying only half the rent as an incentive). I am actually thinking about moving out but i did not expect it to be so soon. I still am deciding... should it fit my budget, I'll go for it, definitely! It's just so sad that my sister and me wouldn't be living together anymore (coz she has her own plans of moving out). I so love being with her despite the fact that we fight like cats and dogs do.
The pretty guy also took an ot yesterday so it didn't bother me much having to spend almost 13 hours in the office (tee-hee!) lovely to look at, charming to hold... but i'm only allowed the former. sucks.
It was just past 3pm when I opened this blog... i had to finish some things so it's actually 6:45 pm now. I'm still here at the office. To be honest, I am not actually psyched at all to go home. I can actually stay here for as long as it could take. I'd rather work than be the stranger that I am at home with my mother. I wonder of we'll ever be okay. As far as I know, I have nothing to ask for an apology for. I know I am only a daughter but daughters also have rights and dignity to keep. And my so-called mother just stripped me off of what's what left of that. She ought to say sorry, not me. (I know i sound like a total b**ch but i was raised to fight for my beliefs).
Yesterday, my boss already spoke to us (V and Z) about that house (Condo actually) that they are going to rent for us (with us paying only half the rent as an incentive). I am actually thinking about moving out but i did not expect it to be so soon. I still am deciding... should it fit my budget, I'll go for it, definitely! It's just so sad that my sister and me wouldn't be living together anymore (coz she has her own plans of moving out). I so love being with her despite the fact that we fight like cats and dogs do.
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