my spirits are pretty high today and i hope it won't drop an inch until i go home this afternoon. it's just a little sad though that my "inspiration" isn't here.. no one to stalk... hehe.. nah, i just feel happy seeing him around... anyway, i think this whole crush thing is going up a notch higher... i mean, i'm really really starting to like like like him... hehe! and i don't know why. i just don't get it... as my good friend zillah puts it, the only thing lacking him is a big "L" sign on the forehead. but i beg to disagree. Well maybe he's a little off when it comes to his fashion but all in all, he's really not that bad. in fact, he has this cute face which he conceals with his unruly hair... (",)
anyway, so far my day's good... even without a glimpse of him... 'til next...
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Monday, August 22, 2005
crushing 101
there's really nothing spectacular about having a serious (is this?!?) crush on someone... especially on someone whom you see everyday but not necessarily get close to as much as you wish for. in my case, i easily get frustrated when the day passes by without my prospect looking (and please, smiling) my way. I usually find him snobbish or a bit moody or i tend to hate (well, just irked by) him. Don't get me wrong... i seriously hate this feeling. blah....
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
August 10, 2005 Wednesday 1:51 pm - I was jilted last night
Is this a good day or what?!?! At last, we have finished the prototype of the EMS 2004 project... yea, after days (and nights) of unabated work (except for a minute or two of daydreaming about the pretty guy). Whom, speaking of, I've been missing for the past seven and a half hours. he's not here the whole day. =( yesterday, i felt like i was jilted. he commented something about our picture that broke my little heart... haha! something like not wanting to see it again... grrr.... that... guy! anyway, i'm having a good time right now... not too loaded with work but i haven't finished this one thingy that i have right now... hmmm... my mind has this big void in it that it feels sooo empty today... maybe drained with too much thinking during the previous project. wait 'till the big boss comes back and we're in for tons more.
Friday, August 05, 2005
August 05, 2005 Friday 6:55pm
Rochelle and me are suppose to have dinner together but it was cancelled at the last minute because of the heavy downpour. it's fine with me though as i still have a long list of "to do stuffs" to finish.
What a day! I was actually sulking this morning because I thought the pretty guy was mad at me. turned out he wasn't. we even had lunch together. geez, i am really being a paranoid... (it's sooo pathetic) but as always, i do not care... I am happy and I am fine with it. (",) This was also the first time I ever had a picture taken with the pretty guy. The outcome wasnn't that magnificent though -- he looked a little constipated while I looked like a mad kitten... shucks... hoped it was prettier (^__^)
He was nice but still, aloof. We kind'a teased him about forgetting how to smile because of too much work... He said in real life, he's a goofball. I'd surely like to see that side. *sigh* I wish to know him more.
What a day! I was actually sulking this morning because I thought the pretty guy was mad at me. turned out he wasn't. we even had lunch together. geez, i am really being a paranoid... (it's sooo pathetic) but as always, i do not care... I am happy and I am fine with it. (",) This was also the first time I ever had a picture taken with the pretty guy. The outcome wasnn't that magnificent though -- he looked a little constipated while I looked like a mad kitten... shucks... hoped it was prettier (^__^)
He was nice but still, aloof. We kind'a teased him about forgetting how to smile because of too much work... He said in real life, he's a goofball. I'd surely like to see that side. *sigh* I wish to know him more.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
August 03, 2005 Wednesday 7:15 pm
It's just the middle of the week and it felt like weekend already! we're sooo loaded with work these days. I am actually quite finish with the editing stuff for the 'procedures' ... almost done and i'm so happy about it.
sucks big time today... the pretty guy isn't here the whole day. =( i sooo missed looking at him (i know i sound like a total psycho...hehe!) ei, he's really cute today! err, he looks a bit different and i'd say he really looks something... (",) but yea, he didn't stay the whole day... grrr.... guess i'd just see him tomorrow then....
okay, i have to go back to work...
sucks big time today... the pretty guy isn't here the whole day. =( i sooo missed looking at him (i know i sound like a total psycho...hehe!) ei, he's really cute today! err, he looks a bit different and i'd say he really looks something... (",) but yea, he didn't stay the whole day... grrr.... guess i'd just see him tomorrow then....
okay, i have to go back to work...
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
August 02, 2005 Tuesday 7:05 pm
About my pretty guy (but he doesn't know actually!!!)
He's sitting quietly at his workstation working on something... I just wish he'd come by and say 'hi'... geez, i am really getting pathetic. (let me be, i am happy anyway) i wonder about this guy really. while others may not notice it, his being 'mysterious' makes me like him even more. what kind of food does he like? What about music? does he read Harry Potter like me? (I doubt...) All i know is that he's into music (the classical type, or maybe not... basta music). He likes laing and he has this weird fashion sense. He also has this weird voice, a little high-pitched for a guy. but it doesn't really matter, he's cute and I like him for that. I just wish i could really get to know him more without being too obvious that i am infatuated with him.... yaikks! wonder what time he's going to go home this time...(",)
He's sitting quietly at his workstation working on something... I just wish he'd come by and say 'hi'... geez, i am really getting pathetic. (let me be, i am happy anyway) i wonder about this guy really. while others may not notice it, his being 'mysterious' makes me like him even more. what kind of food does he like? What about music? does he read Harry Potter like me? (I doubt...) All i know is that he's into music (the classical type, or maybe not... basta music). He likes laing and he has this weird fashion sense. He also has this weird voice, a little high-pitched for a guy. but it doesn't really matter, he's cute and I like him for that. I just wish i could really get to know him more without being too obvious that i am infatuated with him.... yaikks! wonder what time he's going to go home this time...(",)
August 02 Tuesday 3:45 pm
i know you are losing the truest sense of what you are called -- My daybook -- because i haven't written in a long time (and it's suppose to be everyday!) Lately, we've been really buried with work because of that Trainer's Companion Stuff. Last night, we went home almost 9pm. I wasn't able to finish the editing stuff but atleast, I'm going somewhere.
The pretty guy also took an ot yesterday so it didn't bother me much having to spend almost 13 hours in the office (tee-hee!) lovely to look at, charming to hold... but i'm only allowed the former. sucks.
It was just past 3pm when I opened this blog... i had to finish some things so it's actually 6:45 pm now. I'm still here at the office. To be honest, I am not actually psyched at all to go home. I can actually stay here for as long as it could take. I'd rather work than be the stranger that I am at home with my mother. I wonder of we'll ever be okay. As far as I know, I have nothing to ask for an apology for. I know I am only a daughter but daughters also have rights and dignity to keep. And my so-called mother just stripped me off of what's what left of that. She ought to say sorry, not me. (I know i sound like a total b**ch but i was raised to fight for my beliefs).
Yesterday, my boss already spoke to us (V and Z) about that house (Condo actually) that they are going to rent for us (with us paying only half the rent as an incentive). I am actually thinking about moving out but i did not expect it to be so soon. I still am deciding... should it fit my budget, I'll go for it, definitely! It's just so sad that my sister and me wouldn't be living together anymore (coz she has her own plans of moving out). I so love being with her despite the fact that we fight like cats and dogs do.
The pretty guy also took an ot yesterday so it didn't bother me much having to spend almost 13 hours in the office (tee-hee!) lovely to look at, charming to hold... but i'm only allowed the former. sucks.
It was just past 3pm when I opened this blog... i had to finish some things so it's actually 6:45 pm now. I'm still here at the office. To be honest, I am not actually psyched at all to go home. I can actually stay here for as long as it could take. I'd rather work than be the stranger that I am at home with my mother. I wonder of we'll ever be okay. As far as I know, I have nothing to ask for an apology for. I know I am only a daughter but daughters also have rights and dignity to keep. And my so-called mother just stripped me off of what's what left of that. She ought to say sorry, not me. (I know i sound like a total b**ch but i was raised to fight for my beliefs).
Yesterday, my boss already spoke to us (V and Z) about that house (Condo actually) that they are going to rent for us (with us paying only half the rent as an incentive). I am actually thinking about moving out but i did not expect it to be so soon. I still am deciding... should it fit my budget, I'll go for it, definitely! It's just so sad that my sister and me wouldn't be living together anymore (coz she has her own plans of moving out). I so love being with her despite the fact that we fight like cats and dogs do.
Friday, July 29, 2005
July 29 Friday 12:20 pm
It's been a while, but there's really nothing much to tell. For the last few days, I've (we've) been busy with work due to this product that we have to deliver in the next two weeks. How to put it: The word is not really 'enjoying work' because it is WORK and I am actually a self-confessed bummer. I never thought that I'd be okay with having to spend atleast 12-14 hours a day at work but now I am kind'a grasping the idea. First, I am compelled to do it and I am really fine with it. And considering the atmosphere at home now, I'd rather spend my entire day here at the office. Yea, my mom and me are still giving each other the cold shoulder. It's not that I am still mad at her, I'm just really offended by what she said and did when we last fought. The fact that she gave away the spare room that we're supposed to have as an extension to our room (to my 'she's-too-poor-oh-poor-thing-you're-soo0oo-annoying tita) adds to my sentiments. It makes me feel that her sister is more important than her own family! It really makes me mad as hell (and my sister too!)
As for my pretty guy, he's been such a snob this week. wonder what his problem is. Anyway, it doesn't make any difference. He still doesn't know my thing for him. (",)
The Product Team is having this little dinner 'party' for the new company. Sayang, pretty guy wouldn't be there because he's not part of our team. I just hope it would turn out well.
By the way, I still have about 40% of colds virus in my system... sucks...
As for my pretty guy, he's been such a snob this week. wonder what his problem is. Anyway, it doesn't make any difference. He still doesn't know my thing for him. (",)
The Product Team is having this little dinner 'party' for the new company. Sayang, pretty guy wouldn't be there because he's not part of our team. I just hope it would turn out well.
By the way, I still have about 40% of colds virus in my system... sucks...
Sunday, July 24, 2005
July 24 Sunday 12 nn
It's Sunday and I'm here in the office finishing some work so i won't have to go here tomorrow (it's special holiday anyway because of the President's SONA). I had my first "bad" experience at work Yesterday when that 'gorilla' scolded the whole office [out of nowhere] just because people kept asking the management to clarify our working sked for Monday. I really hate him.
Anyway, on a much happy note... I miss the pretty guy so much today. i looked at some of his pictures and he looks really funny... (",) i wish i could look at them all day.
Anyway, on a much happy note... I miss the pretty guy so much today. i looked at some of his pictures and he looks really funny... (",) i wish i could look at them all day.
Friday, July 22, 2005
July 22 Friday 12:45 pm
huhuhu.... i'm not feeling well... i feel so sick, i'm starting to regret going to work. I should be staying home and resting... probably sleeping right this moment... but i have to work. got some things to finish. I need to get those quotations for the magazine ASAP. Even got at a meeting at 1pm about the timeline of the products. Anyway, i had a good time last night with my friend Bambie and Ate Helen. It's really nice to catch up with them. We talked basically about work and I couldn't stop blabbing about the pretty guy (",) but anyhow, that's an entirely different story. tee-hee!
speaking of, he just left about two hours ago with this really pretty lady, a consultant or something... i think a business meeting or whatever that is. it's plain work but i am really really jealous (hehe... Over-reacting) don't know if he'll still be back but i hope he would so i would have someone (thing) pretty to look at... hehe!
speaking of, he just left about two hours ago with this really pretty lady, a consultant or something... i think a business meeting or whatever that is. it's plain work but i am really really jealous (hehe... Over-reacting) don't know if he'll still be back but i hope he would so i would have someone (thing) pretty to look at... hehe!
Thursday, July 21, 2005
July 21 Thursday 12:25 pm
i have no appetite today. maybe because of the fact that im feeling nauseous all morning becuase of my colds and fever. i've already taken my 'drugs' and im actually feeling a little bit better... just sleepy.
haven't seen the pretty guy around yet so my day isn't complete yet (awww!) wonder where he is but of course, i can't just ask around (if i wanna keep my sanity intact).
haven't seen the pretty guy around yet so my day isn't complete yet (awww!) wonder where he is but of course, i can't just ask around (if i wanna keep my sanity intact).
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
July 20 Wednesday 3 pm
weaahh... just 30 minutes ago, i was sulking. the pretty guy was such a snob. he doesn't even smile. we had a meeting (he was there so i was elated) but he didn't even blink in my direction. i wonder if im just really a paranoid little thing or it's just really him. haay, whatever it is, i don't wanna think about it... i'm going crazy here.. but actually, he did approach me a while ago, just hearing him call my name makes me smile up to my ears, but of course i had to act normal. I swear, i really really like him.
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
July 19 Tuesday 12:35
so here i am eating lunch at my workstation... actually, there's just no room for the three of us (vida, tin and me) at the conference room (the smaller one) where we usually eat lunch... there's too many of them there already. (",) the pretty guy isn't eating lunch yet... hmmm.. busy (yea, talking with someone) hehe... he's cute but he's voice is a real turn off... hehe
July 19 9:25 am
haay, it's another gloomy morning. i need to finish some stuffs today and i know exactly where (and how) to start but i'm not in the mood to move. reached the office just in time so i won't be marked late. who else could make my day but that person i was blabbing about. but he is a 'mystery'. today, he is a little snob, he wouldn''t even smile, unlike the other days that you could exchange some friendly banters with him... *sigh* i hate this really.
Monday, July 18, 2005
July 18 Monday 2:55 pm
Grrr…. I am officially pissed off now… (okay, just a little). This is practically my fourth attempt to write this blog. The first three were deleted. I don’t know what’s wrong with this computer… my patience is running thin.
Anyway, I am just squeezing this blog stuff in to my workload. It’s basically my way of unwinding from long hours of tormenting my brain with copywriting. Ei, I’m new at this job so spare me. I’m used to writing business news and whatever articles related to transport and trade. But im getting used to it so there’s no point complaining.
My frustration is that I think I am seriously crushing on one person. It’s not really a big deal but I am just overwhelmed coz I haven’t had a crush on someone in a long time (after one serious relationship). Geez, this makes me sound like an infatuated highschool kid. And I think it’s kind’a funny.
I just find him cute in a ‘weird’ manner… hehe. He’s just different and he has this cute little face that you would never get tired of looking at. Actually, I am pretty stupid coz he has caught me a number of times looking at him (though I am trying really hard not to look). I’m just playing it cool, smiling and saying ‘hi’… geez, I know I sound really stupid. But hey, I’m happy doing this… simple small things that can make my day so why deny myself, right? (“,)
Anyway, I am just squeezing this blog stuff in to my workload. It’s basically my way of unwinding from long hours of tormenting my brain with copywriting. Ei, I’m new at this job so spare me. I’m used to writing business news and whatever articles related to transport and trade. But im getting used to it so there’s no point complaining.
My frustration is that I think I am seriously crushing on one person. It’s not really a big deal but I am just overwhelmed coz I haven’t had a crush on someone in a long time (after one serious relationship). Geez, this makes me sound like an infatuated highschool kid. And I think it’s kind’a funny.
I just find him cute in a ‘weird’ manner… hehe. He’s just different and he has this cute little face that you would never get tired of looking at. Actually, I am pretty stupid coz he has caught me a number of times looking at him (though I am trying really hard not to look). I’m just playing it cool, smiling and saying ‘hi’… geez, I know I sound really stupid. But hey, I’m happy doing this… simple small things that can make my day so why deny myself, right? (“,)
Saturday, July 16, 2005
July 16 Saturday 8:55 am
Geez... I arrived late in the office. i had a hard time fixing my hair. I swear it has its own life. The fact that we are going to a wedding today justifies my innate pleasure of fixing it anyway
I am the happiest person in this office right now. Well, maybe aside from my friend Vida here who's currently having a blast in her lovelife. Nobody knows and I don't really intend to share it with them but i think i am a little infatuated with someone here ... ha-ha! wouldn't tell and i really don't know why... I am such a pathetic fool that i can't share this with anybody, except this blog (and i'm registered under a pseudonym so it doesn't really matter!) I just find his boyish demeanor quite attractive. He's not even that cute. Maybe it's the pleasant personality. (",)
I am the happiest person in this office right now. Well, maybe aside from my friend Vida here who's currently having a blast in her lovelife. Nobody knows and I don't really intend to share it with them but i think i am a little infatuated with someone here ... ha-ha! wouldn't tell and i really don't know why... I am such a pathetic fool that i can't share this with anybody, except this blog (and i'm registered under a pseudonym so it doesn't really matter!) I just find his boyish demeanor quite attractive. He's not even that cute. Maybe it's the pleasant personality. (",)
July 16 Saturday 12:56 am
Whew... I just got home from a girls' night out with some friends at my (new) work and my dearest 'mamu' tere. we were suppose to look and buy a gift for our "Tatay's" wedding tomorrow. haven't been to a wedding for quite some time now so i am kind'a excited (",).
About work, I've been there for only ten days now and it felt like i've been there a month already. not only because of the workload but because the people are sooo nice (atleast most of them) that i can easily get along with.
About work, I've been there for only ten days now and it felt like i've been there a month already. not only because of the workload but because the people are sooo nice (atleast most of them) that i can easily get along with.
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